Friday, April 22, 2011

The Haven Network

On Thursday we had the privilige of bringing up some donations to The Haven Network. The Haven Network is a perinatal hospice that helped us out soo much when we were pregnant with Virginia. They walked alongside of us after the diagnosis and continue to walk alongside of us even now.

We were soo thankful with the generous outpouring of support from our friends and family as they fulfilled soo many items off of The Haven Network's wish list.

This was most of the stuff that we brought up there. We are sending out an additional package next week of a couple more things.

We were finally able to meet with Cheri and Kathy from The Haven Network. They were so willing to drive out when we were in the hospital twice with Virginia but it was a 2 hour drive so we didn't want to do that to them so we had their support via phone. They are such wonderful women and know that they are such a blessing to the families that they interact with. As we talked with them they talked about some of the families that they work with and it just breaks your heart to hear of the suffering of these families--please keep these wonderful women in your prayers as they continue to minister to families in crisis.

Cheri, Josiah and Kathy

Josiah's gift in memory of his sister Virginia

We knew when we got the diagnosis regarding Virginia that whether she lived or whether she died that God would receive the glory. We know that Virginia's life is continuing to help other people and for that we are grateful!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

April 21st

April 20th 2010--we were all watching television and the baby was very active and Josiah was touching my stomach and kissing my stomach and we were able to get a picture of it. Josiah liked to kiss my stomach but he was so fast that we were never able to get a picture of it. It was a wonderful night with so many great memories.

The next day I felt like something was different with the baby and went in to the dr. and there was no heartbeat--this is where it got to be so difficult for us. We went in to the hospital that night with all of our new plans on how the delivery would be. I had met two other women who also were pregnant with babies with hydrops and they were also in labor. Unfortunately, I was not able to deliver Virginia at this time even after spending 3 nights in the hospital.

These are some of the memories that have been replaying in my head at night while I work. It has been so painful for me--I wish that I could go back and feel her kicking. It is such an amazing experience to be pregnant and feel those movements of the baby within you. I wish too that I would not have been so concerned about my safety and would have pushed harder to have her delivered. I will always wonder if that she would have looked a little bit better.