Devastation

Today was another extremely difficult and frustrating day for us. I was still having contractions every 2 minutes that were strong. The baby seemed to be moving down as well.

Dr. S. came in at 9 am and said that I was still not dilated and that something more should have been happening. She said that if I was not in labor by 2 pm I would be discharged and would either need to go to Champaign or Chicago to have surgery to remove the baby.

I was completely shocked by the words that were coming out of her mouth. Just 12 hours earlier she said we were moving forward and the baby was coming down. Now she was not giving us any other options except for the surgery.

We just sobbed throughout the morning at the way things were going. Our little baby had a fatal diagnosis, did pass away and we could not deliver this baby naturally.

At 2 pm we spoke with Dr. S. on the telephone. She said that the baby could remain in me for 1-2 weeks (even though when we met with her on April 8th she said that it could take six weeks before the death of the baby could affect me). She said that the complications would be infection or a blood clotting disorder. She said that the surgery would take between a half hour and an hour. She did not know what the condition of the baby would be after the surgery. She also said that the surgery was called a Dilation & Evacuation